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March 21st, 2004

02:17 am - good birthday I will update this tomorrow, I am too tired right now. But my 23rd b-day night was a really good time. Things have been fun since too. More to come... Current Mood: happy

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December 24th, 2003

08:30 pm - To everyone Merry Christmas to all and to all a goodnight! Current Mood: happy

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December 23rd, 2003

01:28 pm - Oh My God Why does it itch so bad!!!! I want to scratch my tattoo soooooo bad. It is peeling. She's beautiful but she's becoming a pain in the ass. 1 more day and it will be a week, so when does this itching stop!!! Current Mood: cranky

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December 21st, 2003

01:05 am - Does it even matter Does anyone care if you are happy or not? My friends ask how I'm doing but all they want to hear is fine, not the truth. Not the whole truth. I hate Drexel, they are stuck up. i want to transfer to Temple and go for communications instead. But, I have to write an entrance essay and I have never done that before. Besides to be a good photographer you need a good portfolio and I can work on that myself. I don't need some professor to tell me what to do and criticizes me. Fuck that. I need to do my own thing and have people critique me. People that matter, other photographers. Not people who couldn't make it in the photo world so they are teaching now. Like Stuart, that jerk. he only likes Nicole, he treated the rest of us poorly, except Jeff tho. I just feel so lost. Today, the 20th would have been a year for Sarah and I if we stayed together. It's good that we broke up but things used to be great with her, what happened to that. I pushed her away cause I wasn't happy but I don't know why that is. I'm pretty happy now usually, just not all the time. I have no reason not to be happy, i have a great family, amazing friends (mostly) and a great girl who I am having fun dating. So why this sadness? What am I missing? Part of me thinks it might be her that I am missing, that girl I was engaged to almost 3 years ago. If she was in my life still maybe I would fell differently, maybe not. I can't help thinking that it might actually work with her now. Now that we are both different and have grown. But she isn't even allowed to speak to me. God I miss her. When one has made so many mistakes but wants to change, can it happen? Current Mood: cold

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December 19th, 2003

06:06 pm - Wheeee Yesterday was fun. My tattoo took 4 hours. The outline hurt, of course, and only some of the shading hurt, mostly what is around my spine was tender. Vanessa went after me. She kept making little pain noises but she held out. Her pistols look great, I'm going to take a picture of them soon. I went to Sisters last night to meet Kayt. She is so skinny, I wanted to feed her. She hung out for a better half of the night. TJ, Amy Jo, Michael, Mike, Mel, Brian, Serita, and CC all liked my tattoo. They said it's hot. I left sisters shortly after Kayt did at 11:30 cause some bitch hit my back and it killed. Fucker. So I went home and headed right for my bed. My mom said it's nice, the tattoo that is. She washed it for me today since I can't reach it. Vanessa washed it yesterday. I have to go put more A & D on it now. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: my brother laughing

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05:58 pm - New Tattoo she is so hot, I love her. Maybe I should name her... Current Mood: happy Current Music: Pink- Trouble

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December 16th, 2003

05:26 pm - Show and Tell And Thursday I get my new tattoo!!!! Current Mood: cold Current Music: Dryer Spinning

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December 14th, 2003

02:54 pm - Stupid Bitches How are you going to sleep with me on 2 different occasions, tell my friend how attracted to me you are, then tell me we can't do it again cause your "girlfriend" from the internet whom you have never even met said not to. Then pretend to be my friend for a while and write shady shit like "ugh" next to my name in you livejournal. And when I confront you about it you tell me that my personality isn't the kind you are usually friends with. What the fuck, have you smoked yourself retarded? You still hung out with me up until last night, if my personality wasn't your type then why have you hung out with me so many times? I just think that you don't like to be around me cause you can't have me and I talk about the other girls I date. Vanessa is hot, maybe it bothers you that I would never have stopped dating her for you. You aren't worth my time, you can't even make up your mind or tell me the truth until after the fact. I left last night to meet Morgan cause you aren't that fun to be around. I wasn't going to cancel plans with a hot girl to hang out with you. You are a shady fucking bitch and I can not wait until you realize that your little "girlfriend" is a playa. That's right, I've heard if from more than one person. I can't wait until you figure that out. You will move to CA for her and then she will get with other girls, I would bet fucking money on it. You are messed up in the head and depressed, get help, please. p.s- your nails are gross, if you really are a dyke you should cut them and not rock inch long painted nails. Nasty. Current Mood: angry

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02:27 pm - Details Melissa, Lindsay and Leo were with me when I got my lip pierced. They waited in the lounge while Melissa came in to hold my hand. Vince told her I was good at getting pierced, he's done most of my piercings. Anyway. I had lunch yesterday with Jaki, she was really nice. I'm sure we will hang out again when she is done finals. Ran into Gia and Liz at Cosi, I was supposed to meet up with them later on south street but Gia had her phone off. So I went by myself to get my hair cut at the chop shop, she did a good job. Then I walked to the south street Cosi to wait for Melissa and Lindsay. Leo showed up first so we hung out until they came in, stoned. We all got coffee and chilled. That was before the lip ring. After I got it done I headed up to Rutgers NB to meet Morgan. She was even prettier than her picture, she is better looking than Rita Sue from Carnivale. After spending most of the night on rutgers buses we finally got our cars and went to the diner. I asked her on a date while her friend was on the phone, she said yes. We're supposed to go tonight but she hasn't called yet, her call was dead last night though. So yeah Michael-Anne met up with us at the diner with her friend and we all had some food. Morgan left first and I walked her out. Michael-Anne and her friend left later. I headed home to play some grand theft auto before falling asleep. Rich wants to hang out later. I told him to call me cause I don't know if Morgan and I are going out tonight or what. I guess we shall see. Current Mood: cold Current Music: my teeth chattering

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12:46 am - Pierced I got my lip pierced tonight in the middle, it looks hot. Who wants to be the first to kiss it??? any takers? Dan, my tattoo guy is drawing my tattoo tonight. It will be an angel with a face like betty page and a little black 2 piece on, with huge white wings, hot shit. Getting it next week between my shoulder blades on my back, yay. Vanessa is going to come with me and maybe her her pistols tattooed on her hips I think. Hooray for Body Mods. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Dance Hall Crashers- DHC

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December 12th, 2003

01:57 pm - Thank You Mel and I are friends again, I am so happy. She finally broke up with that asshole girl she was with and she's moving out, back to center city. We started talking last night at sisters and did a shot together and smoked cloves. Then I puked in the trash can near the door and some got on the door so I went outside to get some fresh air. Then Mel came out to check on me and we went back to her place. She put on requiem for a dream and I passed out. Then she fell asleep on the potty and burned her egg rolls in the oven for 3 hours. She woke me up and told me to shut the oven off, it was so funny. We went to cosi this morning for food and then I dropped her off. We might hang out again later. It is so good to have her back in my life, I really missed her. It had been a little over a year since we talked, tooooo long. Okay, time to go buy a playstation 2. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Bitch & Animal- You left out

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December 8th, 2003

06:59 pm - Last school weekend This weekend was pretty uneventful. I went to the movies to see cat in the hat with Alise and Melissa on saturday night. It was cute. Sunday I picked up Vanessa to hang out. We picked up my lizard, Crowley, and then went to Joe's so I could take a picture of him with his dad for my photojournalism final. Then we went to the diner for dinner. Vanessa had never seen Bound so we watched that and then some Mtv. She has a final early so I took her home around midnight. It was very cool being able to kiss her again. I like kissing. So I actually have something to write about for once but I think I will start a new entry before doing so. Current Mood: bored Current Music: U2- Angel of Harlem

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December 3rd, 2003

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November 22nd, 2003

02:37 pm - What the fuck Tuesday- After my shower I went to class. Met up with Vanessa and my new friend from Drexel, Gina at Drexel pizza for dinner. Then off to fucking design. I worked the whole time so it went by kinda fast. After class I picked Vanessa up from the SAGA office and we went to NJ. We pretty much just laid around and watched TV, then went to a diner as usual. But it was a nice relief after that damn class. Wednesday- I skipped class because my professor said I could shoot instead. Everyone else was printing and I don't need to because I'm doing that at home, yay. So I slept in. When I finally did wake up and get myself together I headed into the city to pick Vanessa up. I took her to my Aunt Mag's in south philly since we had a few hours to kill before her jewish thing that she had take notes for. We had some pizza, that took forever because they screwed up and delivered it when we were coming to pick it up. We ate in a hurry and I took her to the synagogue. After that I got stuck in traffic and made a pit stop at Rich's for a while to wait the traffic out. Later that night it was diner time with Joe to take pictures of him for my photojournalism final. Thursday- My color class was so nice without the looming fear of design after it. When class ended I picked up Gina and we headed to south street to pick up Vanessa. After waiting for Vanessa to change at the apartment we went to ross commons for dinner. Gina left after that and I went with Vanessa to the SAGA office. We were going to Sisters so I went home to get a shower and get ready. Her concert thingy ended early and I rushed over to get her. The club was packed at first but then it died off. We got a little drunk in my car. I asked them to play the milkshake song but when they finally did they cut it in half, bastards. So we left for the diner with Alise, Brian and Dave. Gia met us there. Joe had already gotten drunk and gone home with his ex boyfriend Matt. We had fun at the diner taking lots of pictures. Friday- I called out. Vanessa had stayed over and I just wanted to sleep more, so I did. Took her to class around 2 and then picked Gia up to hang in NJ. We ran some errands to Target and Best Buy, then back to my place to chill a while before sushi with Alise. The sushi was good and Dave was bar-tending, he's pretty good with the drinks. After that Alise came with me to take Gia home. We picked up my friend Brandi at Penn and then headed back to center city. We parked in the Sisters lot and headed in for a minute to get stamped..... That's when I saw her.... Sitting in the corner of the room with a bunch of people.... MY GODMOTHER! I panicked. It was so fucking weird. My godmother, who i have never told I was gay, was at my favorite gay nightspot. I approached her. I asked her what the hell she was doing there and she laughed. She introduced me to all her friends and they tried to take a picture but I said no. She told me she's known that I was gay since I liked Xena, ha. Then she asked if I had ever dated a guy, wasn't I curious about it, who was I dating now. The normal stuff. I told her that my mom and Uncle Robert know, just not dad. She said she wouldn't tell anyone, I trust her. I always wanted to tell her just not like that. I introduced her to some of my friends that work there and that just were there. They all got a kick out of it. Then we left for Gia's. I got a little stoned and we watched If These Walls Could Talk 2, good flick. We dropped Brandi off when it was over and went to the Medport to meet up with Joe and Cherie for a while. After that I was done. Today- So it's 2pm and I just woke up, go me. I will probably be tired later from over-sleeping. I have no idea what to do today, Rich is calling me later. I'm supposed to see Justin tonight. Wish I was going to Diabolique to see Vana in a thong, boots and a bra, how hot is that. But the tickets were 30 bucks and I'm not into fetish. Oh well. Must find something to do.... Current Mood: awake Current Music: I can hear my mom watching harry potter for the 100th time

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02:43 am - Sappy song time You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you You'd be like heaven to touch I wanna hold you so much At long last love has arrived And I thank God I'm alive You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you Pardon the way that I stare There's nothing else to compare The sight of you leaves me weak There are no words left to speak So if you feel like I feel Please let me know that it's real You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you I love you baby and if it's quite all right I need you baby to warm the lonely nights I love you baby, trust in me when I say Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray Oh pretty baby, now that I've found you stay And let me love you baby, let me love you You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you You'd be like heaven to touch I wanna hold you so much At long last love has arrived And I thank God I'm alive You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Lauryn Hill- You're just too good to be true

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November 19th, 2003

08:03 pm - THERE IS A GOD MY DESIGN CLASS IS CANCELLED TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO DESIGN! NO HELL! NO CRYING! NO WANTING TO THROW MYSELF FROM THE BUILDING! Just color and then SISTERS with Vanessa. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Kelis- Milkshake

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03:53 am - Dilemma I.. love you, and I.. need you I.. love you, I do.. neeeeed you - but No matter what I do, all I think about is you Even when I'm with my boo, know you know I'm crazy over you No matter what I do, all I think about is you Even when I'm with my boo, y'know I'm crazy over you Check it, check it, check it, uhh I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me And uhh, she got the hots for me the finest thing my hood done seen But oh no, oh no, she gotta a man and a son, doh'ohhh, but that's okay Cause I, wait for my cue and just listen, play my position Like a shortstop, pick up e'rything mami hittin And in no time.. (no time) I.. I plan to make this wah-one mi-i-ne.. and that's for sure Cause I, I never been the type to, break up a happy home But uh, there's somethin bout baby girl I just can't leave alone So tell me ma what's it gonna be? She said (You don't know what you mean to me) [Chorus] Check it, check it, check it, uhh I see a lot and you look and I never say a word I know how niggaz start actin trippin out here about they girls And there's no way-ayy-hey, Nelly gon' fight over no day-hey-ame.. as you can see But I, I like your steez, your style, your whole demeanor The way you come through and holla and swoop me in his 2-seater Now that's gangstah-ah-ahhh.. And I got special ways to thank yah-ah-ahhh.. don't you forget it But uh, it ain't that easy for you to pack and leave him But uh, you and dirty got ties for different reasons I respect that and right before I turn to leave, she said [Chorus] I.. love you, and I.. need you I.. love you, I do.. (c'mon girl) And it's more than you'll.. ever know But.. it's fo'sho You can always count on my love Foreveeeeer more, yeahh-yeahh.. East coast, I know you shakin right Down South, I know you bouncin right West coast, I know you walkom right, cause Midwest, I see you swingin right (You don't know what you mean to me) [Chorus] East coast, I know you shakin right Down South, I know you bouncin right West coast, I know you walkin right, cause Midwest, I see you swing it right (You don't know what you mean to me) East coast, you still shakin right Down South, I see you bouncin right West coast, I know you walkin right, cause Midwest, I see you swingin right (You don't know what you mean to me) [Chorus] East coast, I know you shakin right Down South, I know you bouncin right West coast, I know you walkin right Midwest, I see you swing it right (You don't know what you mean to me) East coast, you still shakin right Down South, I see you bouncin right West coast, I know you walkin right, cause Midwest, I see you swingin right (You don't know what you mean to me) Current Mood: tired Current Music: Kelly & Nelly- Dilemma

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November 18th, 2003

12:23 pm - Crazy fuckin weekend Friday- Lindsay came over and we rented Bend it like Beckham. We only finished about half of it before I had to pick Vanessa up from work. Lindsay came with me to get Vanessa and we went to the diner in NJ. After the diner Lindsay left and Vanessa and I cuddled and watched some tv before passing out. The next day- we woke up kinda late and had some bagels before I took her to her house. She lives like 4 miles from me, weird. I guess we met now for a reason. Anyway, I dropped her off and went back home. Lindsay came over later to finish the movie. After that we met up with Gia in the city to get some weed. First we hit Bump for dinner though and I got drunk off 4 martinis. Ran into my friend Tony and Michael, that was nice. After dinner the girls and I went to Gia's dorm to get high. So there I was, drunk and high, falling asleep while everyone else watched scary movie 2. After the movie we hit a diner so I could wake up. It's amazing what 4 cups of coffee will do for you. Lindsay came home with me and we watched my favorite part of Carnivale, it's so hot. She ended up staying over because it was 3:30am before we realized how late it was. Sunday- Lindsay left around 3 and I went to the gym with Melissa. It was so great to finally work out again. After the gym I took a nap until Vanessa's dad dropped her off around 9. We watched some TV and snuggled before heading to the diner. John was there, of course. he likes Joe so much, it's a shame. The diner was fun but we were both tired so I took her home. After a very sweet kiss goodnight she got all her stuff and went inside. Monday- Class. After photojournalism I took Nicole, Dez and Erin to Philadelphia Photographic with me, then to Midcity. We were smoking a bowl in the car as we traveled. But it's a good thing I didn't take the last hit at the light because I made an illegal left turn off market street and an officer ON FOOT pulled me over. He was on fucking foot, no car in sight, how insane is that? Thank god he didn't smell the weed and only gave me a warning. I would have been dead. I went home after midcity and took a nap until 6:30. Then I headed to the diner in medford with Alise. Lindsay called and I decided to meet her at her friend's apartment after the diner. I got a little high with them but not much. Then her friends were supposed to go somewhere so Lindsay asked me to come home with her. I did until about 4am when I was about to pass out and left. Now- The guys are still working on my bathroom, so no shower. I'm about to go get one at Rich's. Then it's off to my wonderful color class and then design. Please fucking kill me now. I need to do my homework for design still, as usual. I'll probably just go early and get it over with. I just ordered Vanessa's christmas present, it's beautiful. I can't want to give it to her. I'm so bad at waiting to give people presents when I already have them. Hopefully she will like it. I want to take her to NYC soon, maybe after thanksgiving since she's been cleaning her house lately for company. I'll miss her when I'm in California. Who's going to say "yeah", and squeak when I say something funny, and give me nice kisses, and be super cute? I'm just not looking forward to the flight at all, soooo long. Ugh. Vanessa- You are so adorable, I love the new hair. We really need to watch some 6 feet under soon, and cuddle of course. You are a very good cuddle buddy, not too bad at the kissing part either heh. Lindsay- I'm really sorry, I hope everything is okay. Current Mood: dirty Current Music: Tegan and Sara- My Number

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November 14th, 2003

10:51 am - Fuck Design Monday night- Sushi with Alise and Melissa met up with us. Then I went with Melissa to meet her friend Linsday, she's nice. We smoked and I felt a little something. Tuesday- Class. Had dinner with Vanessa, left design early before I started to cry because I hate it soooooo much. Wednesday- Class. Vanessa and I went to CD world after her class to apply for holiday jobs. My friend is the manager, Serena. We applied and she asked us a few questions and said she'd be calling us. That night I took pictured of Joe being a heroin addict, haha. Then we went to the diner and i took pictures of Amy and John Fink. Thursday- I stayed in my design class, go fig. Mainly because I was an hour late after taking a trip to philadelphia photographic with the girls and then eating with Vanessa. After class I hung out at Nicole's place and we smoked and then headed to California pizza for food. I did take a little windy trip to 7-11 with Dez too. Oh and Dez put Stuart on her buddy list, haha. I think I finally got stoned last night. Nicole and Dez said I had pot eyes. And I got all sleepy and floaty. It was fun. Today- At work. Supposed to hang out with Lindsay tonight after work. That should be fun. Then I have to pick Vanessa up at 10:15 to sleep over. fun fun. I'm going to the doctor next week on wednesday to get meds. Let's see what the doctor says. Apparently we're actually going to do work at work today, how weird. Roz said we have a lot of cleaning and stuff to do cause people are coming in over the weekend. Whatever. I really have to work on my design shit this weekend. I'm pretty far behind the whole class. Time to play catch up. Finish my shit, as much as I hate it. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Photo students asking for supplies

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November 10th, 2003

05:33 pm - Girls are horrible Friday night- Sisters with Carol, Melissa, Cherie, Justin and Joe. It was okay, I was bored. i wanted to go home way before anyone else did. We smoked before but I still haven't been high. Linz and Mel wanted to smoke but they ended up going to Meghann's after the club. Oh well. We went to the diner and then I had to take Carol and Justin home. Saturday- The G-Room party with Melissa. It was okay. We smoked at Carol's and then again in the car before we went in. The music sucked. And 2 of my ex's were there! (Katy and Kelly) Katy talked to me for a while and bummed a clove, it was okay. She likes my mohawk, that's cause it's hot. Anyway, I said bye to my friend Amanda (she throws the parties) she is going to europe for 3 months, lucky. So we left and tried to find parking in olde city so I could see my friend Jaime at work. She is a cocktail waitress. But no luck. And I got pulled over for running a red light. The lady cop only gave me a citation though, so I'm not that upset. The fine sucks though. We ended up at Sisters again. Hung out for a while and then Melissa left with the girl she met and I went home. Sunday- woke up way late. Picked Vanessa up around 2 and took her to the library in NJ. Then we copied stuff for her out of the books before cuddle time in my room. There was some band playing at Sisters that night but they were lame. Plus, Vana and Linz didn't even go, jerks. Vanessa and I had dinner at Cosi and then cuddled up in a booth until I got tired and took her home. Today- Class. I dropped my film off at Midcity for tomorrow. Picked Rich up for lunch at Phily diner. Then got hair dye and took pictures at the mall. I think I am going out with Melissa tonight. My head is burning from the bleach but I still have a few minutes. I'm not going to call Carol for a while. I know she doesn't really want all of our friends to know that we're messing around but they know. Why else would she call me late at night to come visit her, please. When we are alone she is all sweet and cuddly and kissy. But when anyone else is around it's like I don't even exist to her. It's fucking lame. she'll dance with everyone but me, hang with them and not me. It sucks. I'm tired of her ignoring me and acting distant when other people are around. It's just not fair. She can fuck me in private but not be seen with me in public? I know she wants to seem single when we're out, and so do I... but she doesn't have to act like we're not even friends, that just sucks. When she calls me I will tell her why I'm upset. She used to be my friend, I just want that back. I want to be able to just have a good time without her being shady. It just makes it seem more obvious that we are doing stuff. Fuck Girls. All of them. I need a break before I break. Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: OutKast- Behold A Lady

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